Three Decades And Counting

When you’re hitting the big three oh, insecurities strike you in all directions. Panic, perhaps, is the worst feeling you’ll ever experience. It’s natural! Everyone’s scared of getting old. Who isn’t?

But when you’re 30 and single with no serious relationship, that’s even more daunting.

Frankly, I hate to dwell on misery. I’d prefer to welcome the life of the thirties gracefully and with a truckload of optimism.

I believe there are plenty of things I should be grateful for rather than get depressed.

I maybe loveless for now but never unloved. I maybe be alone but never lonely.

And as for the concept of getting a partner and marriage, I’ll leave that to destiny. Only time will tell

For now, let me relish the memory of my 30th birthday bash

an early dinner @ Chika-an sa Cebu

Grateful @ Three Zero

My day couldn’t be more perfect than today

my birthday cake sans candle

It actually rained this morning. For the past months, we had been in drought. And alas! The sky finally poured. Although not abundantly, it’s enough sign that dry spell will soon come to an end.

Since midnight, my phone hasn’t stopped beeping. It’s nice to know that people near and far remember me by on my special day. I truly feel blessed.

At 4:00 in the morning, I was awoken by my mom and younger brother’s call. Of course, they didn’t get out of bed early just to greet. It so happened that my brother starts his work early and hence the dawn greeting.

At 6:00 in the morning, I was still half-asleep when my papa called to greet me. Such a thoughtful father he is, and I’m lucky to have him as my dad.

A Morning Prayer

Dear Lord,

I thank you for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I’m blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things that are in accordance with “Your Will”.

Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me continue to see sin through God’s eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and receive the forgiveness of God.

And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus’ example — to slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It’s the best response when I’m pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can’t pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those who are lost and can’t find their way. I pray for those who are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don’t know You intimately. I pray for those who will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for those who don’t believe. But I thank you that I believe.

I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly..

This is my prayer. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Emo State

Hormonal imbalance? Aging? Stress?

I’m frustrated of almost anything and everything. I’m f***d up! I’m at my lowest low, right now

I hope a break from my stressful life will work its magic and perhaps, by the time I’ll get back, I’ll feel more uplifted than now

Unveiling Mr. Nice Guy

happy thought: sunrise

Where do I begin? If truth be told, I wasn’t in the least attracted the first time I saw you. On the physical department, you’d certainly rate remotely passable. You’re probably one of those men I wouldn’t dare look at if I hadn’t known you. But I must admit your personality was strikingly appealing And in my own twisted world, personality counts more than physical attributes. In the short period that I’ve known you, I was smitten but obviously the feeling wasn’t mutual

Apparently, it took me months, after a thorough research and sleepless nights, before I had finally put everything in its right perspective. I was, at first, blinded, but you were just acting as you are and you’ve been like that to everyone else. Perhaps, I’ve misinterpreted your kindness to something more than just its face value.

yearning for the missing piece

“The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you

…’Cause I wish you were here”

The Gift Of Love

I was searchin’ for a vid, “THE GIFT OF LOVE” by Bette Midler, unfortunately, no decent video of hers came up. I instead found this

This song tells it all. Everybody wants to love and be loved in return. PERIOD.

Advance HAPPY HEART’s DAY everyone May you finally find that elusive love of yours who could sweep you off your feet and takes your breath away round the clock

Happy Thoughts

At last, I’ve finally came to terms with myself. Starting today, I’ll only entertain happy thoughts and nothing else. It’s such a waste of energy  pondering on things that aren’t happy.

So, au revoir, SADNESS! Bonjour, HAPPINESS!

With that, here are some amusing takes to start off

longing and longing still

“Who doesn’t long for someone to hold.
Who knows how to love you without being told.
Somebody tell me why I’m on my own.
If there’s a soulmate for everyone.”

the irony of it all

Lesson of the day:

“BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR YOU MIGHT JUST GET IT!”

And when it’s there you realize it’s not what you want after all Life simply sucks sometimes